Warning: uncensored adult words to follow!
Reading through my articles, you might get the impression that I’ve somehow managed to wrestle all my ducks in a row. Maybe. I mean, I’m not sure why it would look that way, but it might. What comes across from each article I write is probably based on my conclusions, not an accurate reflection of my actual life.
In the really real world, my life feels pretty fucked.
From the moment I started this journey, my goal has been to create more health and wellness in my life—and to share that with you amazing, wonderful people along the way. Realizing that it’s now or never, motivation seems fairly dependable to keep trying at this self-care stuff. However, I’ll be completely honest with you: I am shiite at it!
Behind The Scenes
Early in, I admitted I had the wrong idea where to start. But with that admission came a new direction. It’s hard to write about the confusion between articles, because there’s not a lot to say. That time is think-thonk mode, trying to figure out why things aren’t working out the way I expected. And while I definitely try to get that across in the article, having a solution pretty much overwrites the uncertainty in hindsight. The experience ultimately ends up lending to the next idea in a net positive way.
Not a bad thing, but it can come off as accidentally misleading.
Really, though, the ideas I present here don’t immediately become my daily regimen. Ok, ok, the tips I gave that come from my current habits are pretty much set, but that was a rare instance. The stuff I plan to do is a lot less solid. Takes time to build up any one habit as automatic—and I’ve got very little willpower to brute force many at once.
Changing Perspectives Is Hard!
Remember last week when I talked about accepting myself as I am? That’s definitely a work in progress. Or how about Monday’s suggestion to abandon rewards? Yup, still at the beginning of that one, too.
Meanwhile, life keeps moving forward. All the fuckery and hardship crashing over me like waves at high tide.
How do I cope? What keeps me so positive about moving forward? How do I fight against the urge to give up, break down, and let the disappointment depression consume me?
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